minimalistic mind

its crazy.this entire humdrum called 'life'!!when i was young...i had dreams of growing up...everyone else dreamt of becoming an astronaut,or an actress,or a doctor!!but i just dreamt of growing big!period.being a kid,dwarfed by so many 'tall' things around was frustating for me!tall people,tall talks....i dint like it at all...i used to stare at the big girls of our convent's high school....and wish and wish to emulate them as best as i could!!dont know why i was like that but i was like a very 'sombre in the inside' kind of kid!
as i grew up,my inhibitions gave way to passion and excitement....i was learning!learning all those things that grown up knew and never divulged when kids were around...i learnt by myself,from friends,from the dictionary,in books!here,i not only mean the tabooed stuff of childhood(love,sex,temptation...to be precise!) but i also refer to ambition,friendship,betrayal,jealousy......all that was previously just a hazy dust in the horizon was suddenly all over me,dripping over my brains,soaking into my soul.....i never complained....i was finally 'growing up'....so i had my dream fulfilled pretty fast in life!:)
then came the part of life where you have absorbed enough and would just like some time to recurperate...but suddenly,time takes off like a F1 automobile and you find yourself trapped in it's grasp....i did not want to grow up anymore...i did not want any more lessons on life's sinful canvas!but i could do nothing to make it stop!
maybe i could have started writing passionately earlier in my life....but as the cliche goes 'better late than never at all!!' so this is my first blog and its about the first thing that my soul acknowledged right from the time it entered the realm of this 'unreal' reality of earth zone...there is simply no time to indulge your abstract fantasies....time is more than just your heart-shaped alarm clock!!